Im a complainer. I admit!
I mumble practically 99% percent of my day… such… “Ala hari ni hujan la” “Ala panas nya hari ni” “Ala sejuknya malam ni” Ala ala.. ala… dan seterusnya ALA….. :)
NAMUN… sejak dua menjak beranak dua ni. Siang dan malam… rasa sama sahaja…. Like seriously… How time flies…. Tahu tahu jer dah masuk bukan 6….
Its JUNE already?? Well.. hokeys… Tunggu sattt…. Where did I missed the train?
Seingat I baru semalam we said “Hello January?”“Assalammualikum Adam Idris” (that’s my baby boy’s name by the way) and… now… its June already??
and... Im like 10kilos more than I was before?
recently added another year to my age? (who's counting)
but what have I achieved in the past 33 years??
in 6 months we’ll greet 2018?? already??? why so soon???
u’ols…. I is stressed! (nampak tak ke-complain-ngan di situ)
Jokes aside….
Stress… Depressed… Tired… Angry? Who’s with me put up your hand
Yes, yes, yes and yeas… Im clicking yes to all the above… Post-pregnancy-depression did hit me bad.
Although... it wasnt bad badddd I must admit… Somehow someway I do feel like a loser on days…
Rasa macam sometime im missing out in life…. not good enough for my kids…. Im a bad mum… yada yada yada…. the list goes on….
Tapi....
Everytime my kids looked up to me… gave me ‘that’ most beautiful smile… In their eyes… I see love… A love like ive never felt before…. and I know Im gonna be ok… :)
Cause seriously…. I can never be good enough!
We are just human. And no 1 human are even close to perfection. Either you admit it or not… We do have flaws. Bad days… imperfections? yes the list adds up…
BUT to your kids…in their eyes… You are the best! A multi talented superhero with magic super power… Comedien… Entertainer… Teacher…. The one they run to first thing in the morning... and the last they wanna see before going to bed.
Like seriously only mum and dad have that special instinct to wake up tengah tengah malam buta while everyone else is sound asleep… 12am, 3am, 5am? 8 - 12 times a day… just for feed or nappy change. EVERYDAY, Any day… weekdays nor weekend… Public holiday.. Tetap… On auto mode… :)
So high five if you sometimes feel you’re a failure. High five if you think you’re a total mess…
and… big cuddly love Mummy and Daddy for trying your bestest best just to be - MR/MRS-100%-Perfecti in-your-kids-eyes! which by the way, what matter the most.
Okehlah... panjang pula membebel... emo sila tepi sikit… Jom makan cokelat! :)
xxx
Travel Junkie Mum
Ps Happy fathers day in advance to all great daddy out there. you will forever be loved
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